Parenting

Prayers I Should Have Prayed

I always prayed my children would stay close to each other when they were adults. I never prayed they would stay close to me. I wrongly assumed it.

A Mother

My friend’s words spoke to me. As estrangement from parents becomes common among millennials, my and my friends’ assumptions about adult relationships with our children are challenged.

My friends and I prayed diligently for our children’s salvation, friends, jobs, health, education, and future spouses, but there were gaps. We prayed for particulars and overlooked larger issues. We prayed for major concerns and overlooked important details.

We looked at the older families around us and said, “We and our children are different.”

These days, when I read Ephesians 6:18, “Keep alert with all perseverance” are the words that stand out to me.

Praying at all times in the Spirit, with all prayer and supplication. To that end, keep alert with all perseverance, making supplication for all the saints.

Ephesians 6:18

Homeschooling

Did I Homeschool Because I Was A Homeschooler?

“We sin because we are sinners; we are not sinners because we sin.

John Phillips 1969

As I thought about the truth of Phillips’ statement, I realized there are many corollaries.

Artists are not artists because they create. Artists create because they are artists. Singers must sing. Writers must write. Teachers must teach.

Was I a homeschooler because I homeschooled my children or did I homeschool my children because, in my heart, I was a homeschooler?

That distinction led me to understand why some parents homeschool with passion while others do their duty. (Students learn under both.)

I think the distinction matters most when making decisions. Did I continue to homeschool year after year because I was a homeschooler? While being a homeschooler at heart may give more passion, does it perhaps make it harder to let go when the time is over?

Which are you? Just wondering.

Decisions, Priorities

What Is Big? What Is Little?

It depends.

Devil’s Den was the site of a major Gettysburg Battle on July 2, 1863. However, during multiple family trips to Gettysburg beginning in the 1990s, Devil’s Den was not a “must see.”

Why?

It was a pile of stones. Seemingly, unimpressive stones.

Devil’s Den (DD), left of me, as seen from Little Round Top (LRT).

Little Round Top, the site of a major Gettysburg battle on the same date, was impressive. My family visited Little Round Top during each Gettysburg trip.

LRT 2007
LRT 2020
LRT 2025

If I zoomed my camera lens while at Little Round Top, Devil’s Den had more substance.

A closer view of DD

Eventually standing on and among Devil’s Den boulders was the only way I understood how imposing the battle site was.

DD 2020
2025
DD 2025

How little is Devil’s Den? It depends on where I’m standing.

How big is Little Round Top? It depends on where I’m standing.

LRT monuments as seen from the DD parking lot.

How big are my problems? How big are others’ problems? It depends. Am I looking from a distance or am I standing in the middle?

Are you far away or up close?



Friendship, Relationships

Another Goodbye

Easter morning 2023 with one of my dearest friends

When people die it doesn’t necessarily mean you’re ready to give them up.

C.A. Belmond

I didn’t want to give up Tina, but unlike my previous loss (see here), the imperfect words have been said.

I met Tina almost twenty-five years ago, but it wasn’t until the summer of 2021 that we started saying all the imperfect words to each other. As we stood at the back of our church sanctuary one Sunday, Tina told me something vulnerable from a place deep within her heart. A different friendship began with that conversation.

While our husbands ran half marathons together, Tina and I walked or rather “talked” the 8Ks. Now we said more. As we went deeper, I never worried about how I phrased something. I could just speak. Tina did not judge or give careless advice. She listened well. She responded with prayer.

Along with our imperfect words, Tina and I also spoke the perfect ones. I love you.

As I long for more, I rest in the knowledge that Tina is with the Lord. One day our conversations will continue.

Let’s keep sharing our words with our loved ones.

Decisions, God's Faithfulness

Accomplishing Goals

I ask God every day to bring all the right things and all the right folks into my life and to help me recognize them when they show up. That’s how I built my whole life.

Dolly Parton

Dolly dreamed big dreams, but she focused on the process and what she had been given, trusting God to provide.

I don’t dream big dreams. (See here.) I don’t believe I can be whatever I want to be. (See here.)

How do I move forward with the vision I believe I’ve been given when I have doubts or become discouraged?

The past fifteen months, I was involved in two unexpected, overwhelming projects that had great impact on others and blessed me tremendously. On reflection, this scripture came to mind.

For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them.

Ephesians 2:10 (ESV)

By recalling how God prepared me for these recent works—which I would not have chosen—it becomes easier to trust that I’ve been prepared for those future projects that at times seem overwhelming.